HAPPY BIRTHDAY HONEY AND HAPPY GROUNDHOGS DAY!

My Mom has her heart surgery February 10th. I am completely terrified. I just want to snap my fingers and its done and she is fine - why can't it be that easy. She is everything to me, my mom, my best friend. I don't know what I would ever do without her. I find myself lately in a daze - I sleep a lot. I am so afraid and so unable to do anything. I want to tell her not to do it but I know if she doesn't she will die and if anything happens from the surgery I will never forgive myself for not stopping her from doing it. It's a horrible circle.

We were taken out for lunch by My mom and brother on Sunday. It was fun and then we came back here for cake and presents. They gave Larry some really nice smelling spray stuff (which doesn't bother me at all, it smells fresh like soap!) and a pen with the world on it with precious jewels from around the world - its very cool! It was a nice day for sure.

We spent Saturday night at Pam and Andy's and Rhonda and Kelly where there also. It was a fun night to celebrate the guys birthday's.

The drama has been kind of intense around here lately. Erica went through some stuff and I have decided to step away from that and not make any rash decisions on anything until after Mom's surgery. I just can't deal with much more than I am at the moment. I worry that being in the state I am in currently I may say something I could regret later so I am just going to leave it alone. Maybe her Mom or Dad could do something instead. I'm kind of tapped out.

So that is where I am this fine Feb 2/2010. Until next time....

~K