What the F*ing F*ck?

A lot of things have happened since my husband birthday. Life seems to test me lately it seems. I have found myself questioning a lot of things, people, situations, instincts and motives of others. Can it be that someone would set out to cause you discord intentionally? Yes that can and has happened to me in my past but I chalked it up then to being teen-aged jealousy, angst, who knows what. Do you think adults do it too? I like to think not but sometimes I get the feeling I am the butt of an elaborate joke perhaps, or the outlet for someone's cruelty.

My Mom's surgery didn't happen because the hole is too big they think to do the procedure. However her cardiologist team has decided she should see the best we have in Edmonton and he/she is convinced they can fix the problem. This should be happening fairly soon.

Brent is doing great! He has some community service to do (25 hours) and then he is sending his application to the army. Lord help me I am not sure I want that. I just want him to hang back a while until he the war is over. I would rather kidnap him and hide him until its all over.

As for the other strange things in our life, I don't want to elaborate really. I just feel lately that there is a shoe about to drop (probably on my head). Paranoid? Perhaps but I am never wrong when this feeling creeps up on me. The only thing to do is be on the defensive and brace myself.